It’s October Twenty-Eight

This is a beautiful fall day in Michigan.  The sun is shining and the leaves are vibrant.  I’m busy homeschooling, cooking and running errands.

But I’ll admit it. My heart is feeling a little broken inside.

  1. The anniversary of my first marriage was 10-28 and it would have been twenty years today. God has worked all things for the good, and I am utterly blessed to be remarried to a kind, wonderful man.  However, 10-28 was significant in my life.  While I no longer mourn the ending of the relationship, I am reminded every year of the death of a marriage.
  2. It was on 10-28, a few years ago in the doctor’s office that we learned we were having a miscarriage, and would never meet our third baby.
  3. Our fourth baby was also a miscarriage and today was a possibility as a due date.

I wonder why God arranged for those losses to be remembered on the same date?

I don’t know a specific reason it happened that way in my life, but God tells us Himself:  It’s not a bad thing to grieve.

 October 28 or not, there are days where we are called to mourn.  Perhaps for ourselves, perhaps with others.

Despite the pain, mourning comes with promises.

Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.  Matthew 5:4

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted, and saves those who are crushed in spirit.  Psalm 34:18

Evening, morning and noon I cry out in distress, and he hears my voice. Psalm 55:17

Probably for the rest of my life, October 28 will be a mourning day.  Yet it is also true that there are beautiful ways that God has “turned my mourning into joy”. I have been comforted by Christ, the sure hope of eternal life, and the kindness of friends and family.  I sure would love to have a newborn to welcome into our home this month.  But I will see my babies someday.  I long to hold, snuggle them and kiss their faces.  Bliss! 

Today I can also remember that someday there won’t be anymore October twenty-eighths.

How about you?  Do you have any “October 28’s”?  How has God comforted you?

October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month.  

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6 thoughts on “It’s October Twenty-Eight

  1. I love Psalm 34:18 and think of it often. One day for me is our first foster child’s birthday. When that day came, she was no longer with our family, and I missed her intensely. I imagine I will for some years to come. I do try to find the joy in imagining what she may be doing and thinking of the good memories we had with her.

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  2. We all have are day Karen. October 1st I aways stop and think if my first husban Mike was still alive were we would be if he was still alive we would be married 22 years and I would have never been mairred to my abuser my second husband. And on September 1st of this year I celibrated my 10 year anniversary of my divorce from him. And next month on the 25 I will celibrate my 8th year anniversary to my third husban Robin. There always seems to come a new morning of Joy we might not see it right away but it does come in Gods time not ours.

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  3. Maybe it’s a blessing that God put a lot of losses on one day so you don’t have to think about them as much on many different days. And yes, it is very healthy to grieve! Let yourself do that once in awhile. It’s cleansing.

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